Worth it!

Some days I don't know how I get through the day. I have fibromyalgia and I deal with daily stressors. I could go on but nobody wants to hear how hard my life is. Everyone wants to know how to survive it. I don't have a perfect answer, but nobody will. I just focus on taking it one step at a time. I journal if I can. It always helps to express myself. Journaling isn't the only way. The other things that have personally really helped me are: o     Journaling ·          Journaling is my favorite way to express myself. It is easy to feel alone in this world. Journaling is a way to get it out. I don't have to worry about other people judging me because I can keep it for myself, if I choose to. A lot of the times I want to share my experiences though. Journaling is a safe haven for me. o     Knitting ·          My Nana taught me how to knit when I was younger. Th...

I realized something today and I'm not sure how I feel about it. Death damaged my relationship with God. Now, death is bringing me back to God. My baby girl is bringing me back to God. My baby girl was and is nothing but a gift. I just can't comprehend why she was taken from me. Would I have gone back to God if she were alive? Did she die so I would be with God again? It was nobody's choice, but it feels like His plan. But it makes me wonder about the different possibilities, the what-ifs. But that's not reality, this is. The fact is Elizabeth gave me, us, so much. She made me a mother and she brought me back to God. She gave me life again. I wholeheartedly believe in the Eucharist. I wholeheartedly believe the Eucharist is Christ. There is so much peace and beauty. I am so grateful that I am back again. I am so grateful that I cam out of the fire close to God again. I could pray and read the bible, but its not the same . Its not the same as sitting here in front of Je...

Life is a roller coaster. I have used that analogy so much in my life! It's true. It's a crazy ride. It is scary, there are highs and lows, but it leaves you feeling exhilarated. There are turns and twists, good times and bad. Life is an adventure. Sometimes you don't know how you get through, but you've gotten through to this point! There is always hope because there is always a future! I've been through a lot of bad stuff, at times I didn't see a way out, but I made it! I made it and I'm glad I did! My life is not easy. It feels impossible sometimes. So how do I get through? My go to is reminding myself that I am a badass! I remind myself and believe wholeheartedly that I have a heart of a warrior, that I am strong and nothing can stop me if I decide it won't. So far, it has worked. I've dealt with depression and suicidal ideation. I was hospitalized for cutting in high school. I have fibromyalgia which sucks! I thought I went through so much and ...