Roller Coaster

Life is a roller coaster. I have used that analogy so much in my life! It's true. It's a crazy ride. It is scary, there are highs and lows, but it leaves you feeling exhilarated. There are turns and twists, good times and bad. Life is an adventure. Sometimes you don't know how you get through, but you've gotten through to this point! There is always hope because there is always a future! I've been through a lot of bad stuff, at times I didn't see a way out, but I made it! I made it and I'm glad I did! My life is not easy. It feels impossible sometimes. So how do I get through? My go to is reminding myself that I am a badass! I remind myself and believe wholeheartedly that I have a heart of a warrior, that I am strong and nothing can stop me if I decide it won't. So far, it has worked. I've dealt with depression and suicidal ideation. I was hospitalized for cutting in high school. I have fibromyalgia which sucks! I thought I went through so much and it felt impossible. Then, I got pregnant. I wasn't ready but I got ready for my baby girl. Then, I lost her. She was stillborn. I will never be the same. It's been months since my delivery. I don't know how I've been getting through it. But I'm a fighter and I'm going to continue fighting every day for my baby girl. I honor her on her due date every year and she will never be forgotten. She was loved and she is still loved. Moving on seems impossible. I am a badass though so I will fight and win. I will make it though this roller coaster because there will be better days. I know I will have bad days again, but this is a roller coaster. This is my adventure and even when it doesn't feel like it, it is worth it!
 

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